Are you dating your phone?

I love technology. I think technology is great and helps us streamline a lot of things and enhance our lives. 

Or does it? 

It does if that is how we choose to use technology. Technology can be good or bad, it isn't inherently either of the two, it depends on how we use it.

When I go out I see tons of people staring at their phones. Couples having dinner together looking down on their phones, groups of friends standing in a circle drink in one hand phone in the other, and singles looking at their phones instead of looking around them.

The latter is probably the least disturbing but it still is an interesting phenomena. Yet a totally understandable one. Looking at your online dating profiles gives you the feeling that while there may be no one around to talk to (or so you think) at least there are still people on your phone to talk to. It's a comforter. A blanket of reassurance that things aren't hopeless. 

I have this radical dream that in the future people will use technology only where it will help them enhance their real life experience instead of replacing their real life experiences with technology. 

I would like to get your thoughts on dating specifically to help me fine tune my crazy big idea.

https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/VX7SBJV

Thank you for your time. 

McDonald's or Microsoft, Same Difference

There has been a lot of discussion lately about the increase of the minimum wage to $15 in Seattle. There were many points on both sides of the argument, but I don't want to get into that here and time will tell who was right or wrong. I will just point out one argument below for the purpose of outlining my thoughts here.

One of the arguments against raising the minimum wage was that these types of jobs were never meant to be a long-term solution or a career and I agree with that argument.

However, people are so focused on the amount of money a job pays and benefits that the company offers that they seem to ignore or at least dismiss whether or not it brings value to their lives.

Of course we all want a job that pays well so we can support our loved ones, have money for emergencies, etc. That is certainly a huge factor in job satisfaction. But our jobs are temporary. People switch jobs every few years these days. A job also needs to provide progress, upward or lateral movement, either through a promotion or through cross-training. Your job needs to fit your goals. It needs to teach you something new on a regular basis, challenge you, and bring you closer to the next level.

Note that I used the term 'goals' above instead of 'career path' because I don't think that is how the world works anymore. A certain career goal is not the only thing a job can bring you closer to. If you have read the 4 Hour Workweek, you have an idea of what I am talking about.

We tend to think of our jobs and our careers as linear.We tend to pay more attention to the status and pay of a job than to the knowledge, joy, learning, and fulfillment it brings to our lives.

If you are stuck in dead-end office job at a large company with no way up or out, are you really better off than someone working at a fast food joint while working on their online business on the side? Or someone working as a bartender because they want to learn about wine so they can open their own tasting room some day?

It's not the job you hold that makes you successful, it's what you are going to do with what you learn, every day.

Now you may say that most people working minimum wage jobs probably do not think this way and have no such aspirations. If you're still focused on 'them' instead of 'you' right now, you're missing the point.

Is YOUR job giving YOU what you need long-term or are you just flipping burgers to make a buck? That is the question, whether you work at McDonald's or at Microsoft.

Let me give you a quick personal example of a decision I recently made. I am a skilled professional working at a big company. There are many things I do well, but selling isn't one of them, especially myself and my own product. I wrote a children's book (www.schmittyandfelix.com) that encourages kids to do chores and you could put a family with 5 children in front of me and I would say something like: "So I wrote this book, it's really cool, it's about doing chores...you might maybe perhaps like it... but you probably don't need it.. I mean, it's really awesome, but.. never mind... it's not for you... probably" (sadly that is not an exaggeration).

I have gone through many training sessions about selling and overcoming hesitations as a by-product of my job, but that hasn't helped me with overcoming my fear of selling. So I have decided to do something that sounds as scary as sky-diving to me: I am going to stand on a mall parking lot with a box of my books in my car and sell them to people passing by.

Now just typing that out gave me the creeps, but I will do it. If I can do that, get through the discomfort, ignore the stigma it brings, deal with the rejection, I will be able to move past that lacking skill set and most importantly that fear. I will have conquered it. While I am not quitting my job to do this, it is an example of what may seem like taking a few steps back (or in this case like hitting rock bottom) to advance myself and grow.

So when you think about your job, ask yourself: Which new skills am I acquiring? Which fears am I overcoming? Who am I meeting? Am I doing something I love? Where is it taking me?

Hopefully you will find that you are in the right place and are growing on a daily basis whether you work at McDonald's or at Microsoft. If you're not, read quote below and let it sink in:

“Someone once told me the definition of Hell: The last day you have on earth, the person you became will meet the person you could have become.”

- Anonymous

Knock out the mammoth that is chasing you

I listened to a TedX talk the other day about "Coming out of the closet". It's a great speech about coming out of the closet, not just in the way we all know it, but about coming out of the closets we all have. Telling your kids you're getting a divorce, telling your friends you just declared bankruptcy, etc. But what really struck me was the part where she talks about stress.

Listen to the whole thing if you want, but the section I am referring to is from 4:56 to 6:08  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSR4xuU07sc

She talks about the effects of prolonged stress that staying in the closet causes. The chemical reaction our body produces in response to stress was meant to protect us in situations of immediate harm. Like being attacked by a mammoth. The stress lasts for the period of the attack but then vanishes when the attack is over.

It got me thinking about all the stress factors in my life.What do I worry about? What keeps me up at night and why? And I realized that they are all things that I know I need to take care of but haven't for different reasons. And then I started thinking about how much better my life would be if I did take care of those things. How awesome would it be not to have to worry about lingering issues?

Granted there are some things in people's lives that will cause on-going stress and cannot just be eliminated by taking care of something. If you or someone in your family is seriously sick, you will worry about it and there is nothing you can 'take care of' to make it go away.

But how much unnecessary stress are we causing ourselves with things that don't need to be a stress factor? How many things could we just eliminate from our minds at night lying in bed if we just ate the proverbial frog?

Have you been postponing an important but critical conversation? Is there a bill or debt that has been hanging over your head for a while? Is that funny looking mole in the back of your mind at all times? Is there someone you owe an apology to? Are you worried about the future of your job?

Sure some of these can be difficult to handle, but what if that mole is nothing? Or what if it is something but it is removed early enough to not cause any harm? Waiting any longer to have it checked out surely won't help the situation. Can you apply for different jobs even if you don't know what the future of your current job is just to have a back-up plan? Can you take classes, ask for stretch assignments, etc, to make yourself more valuable in your current job? Can you call that bill collector that is calling your every day and you let it go to voicemail because you don't want to deal with it and set up a payment plan?

I know that dealing with life is not that simple. Some things will be stressful and difficult, no matter what.
But with every issue you face, ask yourself this question:

Is eating the frog really worse than being chased by an angry mammoth?

Online Dating: My 2 Cents

I have been on various online dating sites and have been on countless first dates (not so many second dates and even fewer third dates) and have chatted with a lot of my dates about their experiences in online dating as well as talked to my friends who are also dating online. At this point, I can say that I am pretty much an expert in online dating.

In this blog post I want to cover a few things:

1.       Best online dating sites

2.       Dos and donts for profiles (men and women)

3.       Dos and donts for messages

4.       General thoughts

1.       Best Online Dating Sites

As mentioned I have been on a few a sites and here is my ranking (this only contains sites I have been on, obviously there are sites out there I haven’t been on)

1.      OKCupid – this is by far my favorite site and I have been on the most quality dates from this site. It is free with the option to upgrade (i.e. pay) for additional features, which I have not. It has a matching system based on questions you answer. Some of the questions are a little silly and some of them are very very personal, but you can choose to answer them privately and still get matches based on your answer if that makes you more comfortable. Some of the questions are user generated which I think is awesome because it provides an insight into what people want to know about their partner in advance. You can answer as many or as few questions as you want and also skip questions you don’t want to answer, but the more the better the match will be. You can also view the responses (if answered publicly, which most people tend to do) of potentially dates to each questions if you really want to dig in.

The user base seems to be fairly broad and you seldom see the same faces. You can e-mail whoever you want, not just your matches. They also have an activity feed and a broadcast setting that lets you spontaneously connect with people on their app. You can set your broadcast to whatever you are doing and where you are to see if someone wants to hang out. I have met a few cool people that way. The app also tracks your location and shows you in people’s feeds where ever you are. I recently travelled to SoCal and when I checked my app about an hour after landing I had 121 new visitors to my profile and 34 new messages.

2.      Plenty of Fish (POF) – now a lot of people think of this site and think ‘hook up’. Yes, there are quite a few people on there looking for just sex, just as any site really. It’s not that bad. It’s free with an option to upgrade for additional features just like OKCupid and it’s simple. Just your pictures and your profile and people to talk to. Now it does provide you with matches and there is also a feature called ‘Top 10 prospects’ (seems to only be available to women though), but I have no idea how in the world they generate that because you don’t submit any information other than your basics and some qualifiers. So take the matching with a grain of salt. I have gone on a few quality dates from that site. They also have an app and it also tracks your location just like the OKCupid app. But it doesn’t have the broadcast feature.

3.      Match – the first downside of match.com is obviously that it is not free unlike OKCupid and POF. You would think that if people pay for something they would be a little more serious about the whole dating thing but that is not the case. It’s not worse or better than the free sites, it’s just the same. I did find the user base to be smaller and started seeing the same faces over and over again. You get matched based on questions you answer, but why pay for that when you can get it for free on OKCupid? I have gone on a few dates from this site.  I am sure they have an app as well but I never used it.

4.      ChristianMingle – I have not gone on any dates from this site. It is free however and it is nice to know upfront that someone is a Christian. What bothered me the most about this site is the user interface. It looks cheap and is weird to navigate. Also, their user base doesn’t seem to be very big and I did not receive any e-mails from men that I would actually consider dating. Not sure if they have an app.

5.      EHarmony – now this one is the biggest disappointment of all. A few months ago I decided to give it a shot because again I thought that if people put that much effort into creating their profile and pay for it, that chances are you can find someone who is actually serious about dating. I paid $75 plus two more payments of $75 for a year membership and I am soooo regretting it. First of, if you are really that convinced that your site can find you the perfect match, why make the cheapest and best option a one year long membership? (yeah I should have thought of that before I signed up…now shush). I get about 5 matches a day, usually 4 out of the 5 are completely unattractive to me in terms of looks. Also, most of them have a note that says “this person is just out of your match criteria but we still think they could be a great match”. That usually means they are 5’6. Nothing wrong with being 5’6 but I am 5’5 and I wear heels so 5’10 is my minimum height. Call me superficial, I don’t care. It also tells me that I should adjust my distance settings to more than 250 miles away from me(!!!) to get more matches. Yeah, I am not looking for a pen pal.

They have a pre-set communication pattern where you pick a few pre-set questions to send to someone, then Likes and Dislikes, then something else, then something else, and then finally you can actually start e-mailing each other. The few guys that I have actually communicated with stopped responding when it got the point of freely e-mailing each other. Now you could say that that was just me, but I get about 20 e-mails a day on OKCupid, so I think not. Some of the guys haven’t even been online on the site in weeks. They do have an app but it doesn’t do anything outside of what you’d get on the website.

They have a  features called ‘What if’ that shows you people that aren’t matches, but doesn’t allow you to just browse people either. My verdict: don’t waste your money.

2.       Dos and donts for profiles

Men’s dos and donts

-         Do put up pictures of your face from different angles. Ask your girlfriends which pictures make you look the best but don’t misrepresent yourself.

-         Don’t put up shirtless pictures unless you’re ripped.

-         Don’t put up mirror selfies (one is fine, but all of your pics??)

-         A few pics of you waterskiing, etc are fine but don’t make all of your pics like that. I can read what your hobbies are in your profile, I don’t need to see you doing them. I want to see your face!

-         This may be obvious but you wouldn’t believe how many guys don’t do this: SMILE.

-         Don’t lie about your height.

-         Don’t start your summary with “I hate writing about myself but here it goes” (or anything similar)

-         Don’t put up pictures that are older than 6 months.

-         Don’t put up one picture with a beard and long hair and one with a bald head and shaved without explaining which look is you RIGHT NOW. Yes, that is an extreme, but you get the point.

-         Don’t put up pictures with you and your buddies unless you’re the hottest one of the group.

-         Do talk about what is important in your life and where you are wanting to go. Drive is sexy.

Women’s dos and donts:

-         Don’t put up pictures of just your cleavage.

-         Don’t put up pictures that are older than 6 months.

-         Ladies, ladies, ladies… I know we all want to show our best sides, but don’t lie about your figure. Own it! In both your profile and your pictures. This is the number one biggest complaint I have heard from guys. ‘She was way bigger than her pictures’. I know there are clever angles to take pictures from that make you look skinnier but guess what, those angles won’t help you in person. Love your body and be proud of it.

-         Do smile in your pictures.

-         Don’t duckface in your pictures.

-         Don’t put up pictures of you with girlfriends that are hotter than you! (can’t believe I have to even say this)

-        Don’t say “I hate drama” because it usually means you create it. At least that’s what guys think and have experienced.

-        Don’t rant about other guys or bad dates on your profile.

-        Don’t be a bitch.

-        Do offer to split the bill. Always. Times are tough and guys don’t have money to waste either. He will appreciate your gesture and if he is a gentleman he will refuse your offer anyway. But at the latest on the         third date you should insist on paying all of it yourself. Then you can play it by ear going forward.

3.       Dos and donts for first messages

-        Do write more than ‘hi’.

-         Don’t write ‘dtf’ or make a sexual comment. (unless that’s what you’re after obviously)

-         Don’t write a novel. If you can’t capture their attention in 3 sentences you’ve already lost.

-         Do check for spelling errors and grammar. (this one is a pet peeve of mine)

-         Do tell the person why they stood out to you and why you think they should write you back, i.e. what you have to offer them.

-         Don’t diminish yourself. (“I know you are out of my league but…”, “I am probably not what you’re looking for…”)

-         Do write with confidence.

-         Be genuine.

4.       General Thoughts

-         Don’t give up! I went on many many many dates before I found someone that I actually wanted to put some effort into. Sometimes you like them more than they like you and sometimes it’s the other way around and sometimes you mutually agree there is no connection. And one day you will go on a date and you will both agree that you do have a great connection.

-         Don’t be a stage 5 clinger. It’s not sexy. And both guys and girls do it. If the other person is not interested, move on and find someone new.

-         Don’t take it personally. If someone doesn’t like you, it doesn’t mean you’re not likable. It’s just means that one person didn’t click with you. And you never know what is going on in their lives. Maybe they are still in love with someone else, maybe they are just not ready to date, or maybe they are just out to have casual fun.

-         Yes it is online dating, but that doesn’t mean it’s online ‘dating’. Once you connect through the site a few times, meet up in person to see if you click.

-         Don’t jump into an instant relationship. It will fade quicker than it happened. Give it time.

-         Be honest about who you are and what you want but make it clear that you are not expecting the other person to be that. So if your end goal is to be married, be honest about that, but don’t put that pressure on the person you’re with. It is a goal you have with whoever is the right person for you. It might be them or it might not. It’s your goal and whether they will be part of that goal will emerge at a later time.

-         We all know fairly quickly whether or not we can see ourselves with someone going forward or not. You might like the other person, you might have fun with them, but deep down you’re already thinking about letting them go because you’re just not feeling it? Let them go. Now. I am not saying you have to know right away that you want to be in a relationship with the person, but if you can’t get it up with her (not sure what the female equivalent here would be…), you’re probably not interested. It is not a fair and total douche move to lead someone on just because you’re having a good time with them.

-         Don’t let past experiences impact how you interact with a new person. It will only taint the experience. Sure they may turn out to be ‘just like all the other guys/girls’ but if you don’t approach things with an open heart, you might end up dismissing or driving away someone who liked you and treated you well.

-         Don’t make assumptions. But always assume best intentions.

-         If you genuinely like someone, give it the best chance it can have by not being clingy, anxious, weird, pushy, or anything else negative. Relationships are fragile, especially in the beginning stages.

-         Don’t settle.

-         Have faith.

Happy online dating!

The Queen of Procrastination is dead

I have been struggling with procrastination for the past few years. Getting stuff done has become an obstacle to me. But according to my strengths finder I am an activator, which has been baffling to me. Ideation is also one of my strengths. I have great ideas but I have trouble following through on them. I am working on multiple projects in my personal life that could greatly enhance my life if I only finished them, but I haven't and rarely work on them. At work, I am a little better, because there are deadlines and pressure from other people. I don't know if it's Twitter's fault but my attention span is shorter than 140 characters. In meetings that last more than 30 minutes my mind starts to wander. I get pinged on 50 different 'apps' every day (Facebook, Twitter, Outlook, Office Communicator, text, kik, whats app, Yahoo mail, Gmail.... the list goes on) so I guess it is no wonder I can't focus on one thing more than 3 seconds.

So today, and I don't know where this thought came from or what inspired me to try this, I made a list of all the things I need to get done today and the set a timer for 15 minutes and started on the top of the list. 

A few examples of tasks that can be completed in 15 minute intervals that are on my list:

- Dishes/clean kitchen

- Sort closet

- Edit book

- Catch up on e-mail

I have been working the list of about 20 items total since then and I have gotten more done than I probably have this entire past weekend in just the past two hours. You would be surprised how much you can get done in 15 minutes. And if you are also competitive like me, you're going to try to get as much done or finish a task completely in those 15 minutes. This blog post is one of the items on my list. I have 1 minutes and 30 seconds left.

Try it. Let me know how it works for you. If I can keep this up, this will truly be a life changer for me. 

In God I trust

As a Christian your faith should be displayed in many different ways. Christians are meant to be the light for other people that guides them to the truth. Your faith should be displayed in your daily interactions with people, your charitable giving, and in your trust in God, among other things. Granted, we are all fallible and our faith is put to the test by the devil every day.

I had an epiphany about myself the other day. I claim to be a Christian but you couldn't tell by my reaction to difficult situations. I get very upset and angry when something is out of my control, when something does not make sense to me and I don't see the logic or reason behind decisions made by others that directly impact my life. There was an incident that made me realize this. I was put into a situation that I felt was unfair and irrational. I got very upset, walked away, and was ready to burn a bridge. I was ready to completely quit a relationship, not just with one person, but with an entire organization that I had spent over a year building trust with and working hard for (I am not talking about my job by the way). I spent the entire afternoon being upset, talking to people, trying to figure out how to get what I want and was already drafting the e-mail in my mind that I would send explaining why that organization would not get my support anymore. Later that evening, I received a phone call that the director had been consulted and would make an exception to policy and the situation was resolved in my favor. 

Joel Osteen talks a lot about God's favor. I listen to him almost every Sunday, but somehow the message about having God's favor, about God bringing about good from every situation, has not been internalized by my heart. I have been doing a lot of soul searching these past few months and been very observant of my own thoughts and my own behavior. As I was contemplating my epiphany, I talked to people that know me very well and have seen me react in a similar fashion many times before. The consensus was that I need control. If I feel like I have no control over a situation and am being controlled by someone else, I completely shut down. There are many examples that I can point to that support this. So I started wondering when I felt like that for the first time. 

My dad died when I was 8 years old. He went to the hospital after a stroke and was there for about 2 weeks. One day my mom received the phone call that he would probably not make it and if he did he would have major brain damage and would be bed-ridden for the rest of his life. She grabbed my hand and my little brother's hand and we stood in a circle to pray for my dad. My mother was so upset, she couldn't even speak. This is the moment I grew up. I was 8 years old. I pulled myself together and prayed out loud for all of us. I prayed to God that my dad would be either completely healed or that God would take him to heaven. As young as I was, I remembered my dad saying many times that he would rather be dead than being a vegetable that others have to take care of which is why my prayer was so specific about healing him completely. Later that day, my dad passed away. Needless to say, in my 8 year old mind, it was my fault because of the prayer I prayed. Not only was I now dealing with not having a father, I was also dealing with the burden of guilt about his death. I never received any counseling after his death. I had to be the other adult in the family. My mom now had to work day and night to support us and keep the apartment we lived in so we wouldn't lose our home on top of everything else as well. I raised myself and my little brother while she was at work. My mom is a wonderful mom and did everything she could for us. She gave up her life to support us and to give us the best life possible. I know how much it hurt her and to this day hurts her that I had to grow up so quickly. 

In retrospect, our life would have been even harder if my dad had survived and had been bed-ridden. Things were tough enough. The memories I do have of my father are that of a strong, vital man with high dreams and goals that he managed to achieve throughout his life. He fled the socialist hell the Czech Republic was at the time, started working construction in Germany, living in a small apartment with 7 other guys, taught himself how to speak and write German, put himself through school and became an engineer at VDO. My dad taught me about the American Dream, even though we were not in America. I am thankful that I remember him that way rather than as a helpless, bed-ridden man. I am thankful for everything my dad has taught me, even after his death through the stories my cousins and aunts told me about him. I understand this on an intellectual level, but in my heart and soul, the 8 year old girl still wishes she could have had more time with her dad. 

In my adult life this has translated into not wanting to give up control. It has translated into not wanting to give my burdens to God because I am scared of the outcome. It has translated into me being completely unequipped to deal with any kind of loss, including break ups. When someone chooses to leave me, I can intellectually understand the reasons behind it but in my heart and soul I feel that it is my fault. And because I feel like it is my fault, I feel like I need to fix it. There has got to be something I can do to make it go away and have more time, right? 

So when someone tells me no, when something does not go the way I so desperately wanted it to go, be it personal or professional, the 8 year old girl in me rises up and fights. The 8 year old girl in me screams 'not this time' and does not comprehend that sometimes there just isn't anything you can do or should do. 

Evil is everywhere in the world. Death and loss are a part of this world. But God is in control. God promises that He will pay us back for what we have lost.  I need to learn to understand that, to feel that. I need to learn to be patient and trust that God will take care of me and that I sometimes sabotage what God has planned and prepared  for me by trying to force it and trying to control it. I need to give up control and fully trust the Lord. This will be my greatest and most impactful resolution for 2013. 

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

Matthew 11:28-29

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

Isaiah 40:29-31

He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.Even youths will become weak and tired,and young men will fall in exhaustion.But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.They will soar high on wings like eagles.They will run and not grow weary.They will walk and not faint. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3b1iwLIMmRQ

Surprised by the Voice of God

I have read 'Surprised by the Voice of God' 13 years ago (http://www.amazon.com/Surprised-Voice-God-Jack-Deere/dp/0310225582 not an affiliate link, just for reference). I still own the book and I am about to read again after what happened to me last night.

I had a rather rough week at work and a particularly rough day yesterday, feeling like I let people down that counted on me. On top of that my Friday night plans were cancelled last minute. I had been looking forward to being done with work and just relax and then that didn't happen either. Not to complain, people are dealing with much worse than that. Just setting the stage here.

I laid down in bed and just tried to get control over my mind so it would stop racing. I get anxious very easily but I am very effective at snapping out of it quickly. Yesterday it wasn't that easy for some reason and I even started feeling physically sick which only increased my anxiety. I don't like bothering people with my silly problems so I didn't call any of my friends or family to talk about it.

So I closed my eyes and started focusing on God. Some call this 'quiet time'. I wasn't even praying. I was just quiet, trying to listen to God (which I need to do MUCH more often, as a routine and with purpose). My mind was still trying to race, but I kept at it, trying to just focus on God.

All of a sudden, a random name popped into my head. I tried to actually drown it out at first, thinking it was part of my mind racing. But it kept coming back. Very clearly. Over and over again. A name I had never heard before. I don't even know anyone by that first name. Or by that last name for that matter.

After about 5 minutes of this name very clearly repeating over and over in my head, I picked up my phone and googled the name, expecting to get a bunch of random results to sift through with no real conclusion as to what the name meant. I had no idea what to expect.

First three plus results were about the same Christian therapist/counselor in Seattle. In fact, when I started typing her name in the search box, Google auto-populated the box with 'Seattle' after her name. I couldn't believe it. I read her bio and methodology and was blown away by what a good fit she would be for me.

I hadn't been thinking about finding a therapist. I have never searched for a therapist in Seattle (especially West Seattle). I don't like counselors and generally think they are full of crap and that I don't need them. Because I am tough. I always have been and people have always told me that I am extremely strong. And people have always expected me to be tough and strong. I don't like asking for help. It's a sign of weakness in my eyes. Even in relationships, I never allow myself to just fall and trust that I will be taken care of because I've always had to be the strong one and carry those around me.

Apparently, God disagrees with me there :). Which is very scary to me and most of me is still resisting the idea of seeing a counselor. But it also brings tears to my eyes, because it shows me that all the burdens that my prideful soul thinks I have to carry by myself, God doesn't want me to carry by myself.

Sure, this may be a little bit of an exaggerated interpretation of a small thing like getting a name. But God was certainly nudging me. And I feel very blessed by and through that. I hope I can experience that kind of clarity in hearing God's word over my life more often. Which I know has to start with me actually taking the time to listen like I did yesterday. And needless to say, I will be setting up an appointment with this lady.